There are other reasons it is difficult. It is difficult because I still feel my battle is being waged in my heart - like I am incomplete. Most of that is my fault. You see, I didn't handle all of this quite right. I didn't put ALL of my trust in God when my marriage fell to dust. My faith was shaken to the core and I can see that now. I depended on myself too much and Jesus too little. It would have always been a rocky path, but it could have been one with less heartache. I have spent too much time in the last five years worried about my plans, rather than waiting for what God has planned for me. I've been worried about how I will work things out. Worried about life in general. I've spent too much time worrying to realize God has this under control and I need to lean on Him.
Sixpence None the Richer released a song (a long time ago) called Trust, which was taken from Proverbs 3:5. It has always spoken to me and I hope it speaks to you, too.